I had this conversation years ago with someone who said "you are a Golden retriever." I thought about it for a long time and realized.... it's true...
I love people, I've never met a stranger and I think the world at large is a wonderful place... unless it's not. I am "happy go lucky", not quick to anger(but vicious when I am), protective of those I love, never one to hold a grudge but never forget the ugly people in life.
I thought to myself... A Golden Retriever... that's not so bad... I am proud to be one! Why, I would rather be a Golden than say a yippee thing, biting at peoples ankles...or a mutt.. always questioning what you are and where you belong, Or even a Bull dog.. aggressive on the outside and frightened inside.. the proverbial Iron Marshmallow.
No, I decided,being a Golden was totally ME!!!!
Then I found out what that really means, in my soul.... Golden's feel... deeply.
Hurt that may roll off the back of a pit, or go UN-noticed by the yippee dog, hits deeply and is damaging. when someone lashes out at a Golden we bleed... in our soul.
Empathy is horribly painful... To truly empathize I must FEEL your pain... and to a Golden that is akin to a knife in the heart.
We also must judge our worth by what others tell us..... "you are ugly", "you aren't good enough"
This is so damaging, so painful... I am saddened to realize that I will never, no matter how hard I try.. no Matter what things I do or say, be good enough...
My soul is bleeding with the knowledge that I am so flawed that to be around me is a strain to you....
I have decided that being a Golden is a HORRIBLE thing... Why would you ever wish that on someone??
I don't know what to do to change that. I cannot be something that is not me... I don't understand the world when I see it this way. My basic character is inexorably flawed... I don't want to be hurt, and damaged, and left to the whims of those who feel in charge...
How sad to be a Golden Retriever.....
I love people, I've never met a stranger and I think the world at large is a wonderful place... unless it's not. I am "happy go lucky", not quick to anger(but vicious when I am), protective of those I love, never one to hold a grudge but never forget the ugly people in life.
I thought to myself... A Golden Retriever... that's not so bad... I am proud to be one! Why, I would rather be a Golden than say a yippee thing, biting at peoples ankles...or a mutt.. always questioning what you are and where you belong, Or even a Bull dog.. aggressive on the outside and frightened inside.. the proverbial Iron Marshmallow.
No, I decided,being a Golden was totally ME!!!!
Then I found out what that really means, in my soul.... Golden's feel... deeply.
Hurt that may roll off the back of a pit, or go UN-noticed by the yippee dog, hits deeply and is damaging. when someone lashes out at a Golden we bleed... in our soul.
Empathy is horribly painful... To truly empathize I must FEEL your pain... and to a Golden that is akin to a knife in the heart.
We also must judge our worth by what others tell us..... "you are ugly", "you aren't good enough"
This is so damaging, so painful... I am saddened to realize that I will never, no matter how hard I try.. no Matter what things I do or say, be good enough...
My soul is bleeding with the knowledge that I am so flawed that to be around me is a strain to you....
I have decided that being a Golden is a HORRIBLE thing... Why would you ever wish that on someone??
I don't know what to do to change that. I cannot be something that is not me... I don't understand the world when I see it this way. My basic character is inexorably flawed... I don't want to be hurt, and damaged, and left to the whims of those who feel in charge...
How sad to be a Golden Retriever.....
