Understanding

Sometimes I find myself in thoughts of "why" when maybe I would be better to forget. But that is so much easier said than done on occasion.

I know my heart, and my desires and try to be aware of my actions. It's of those things I should concentrate and disperse any passing thoughts of those who may not approve. Not that I don't care but that those people many times are self centered and uncaring of the others. And if this be who they are, closed off and arrogant then why spend time even with questioning?

Because I have a strong desire to understand, is why. I don't understand why people would create judgements prior to making an acquaintance. Not spoken, written or other wise. How do you do that? How do you just decide a person is not worth meeting with never have opened the door to opportunity? Are people really that mean? Can they be that rude? Does an others feelings never count? Where is common courtesy? What happened to being open minded, and welcoming?

No I am not so arrogant that I believe all should open welcoming arms for a new friendship or relation ship. And yes there will be and are people who just don't appeal to me or I to them. But I can honestly say I gave them the opportunity prior to passing such a harsh judgement.

I do believe there is good in all people. That everyone deserves an honest shot until they prove to be UN-trustworthy. And I hope I always show people I truly care and that they are worth my time and efforts. I hope I never walk away and leave hurt feelings.

Truth is, walking away is difficult for me. I can't recall ever closing a door on a friendship or relationship. Time and work might keep me from making those "hi, how are you?" phone calls, the unexpected card or note that says I was thinking about you. But I hope everyone I have ever met knows that I do care, and they are important in my life.